i want to be bloated, narcisisstic.

i don't want to make an effort.

i want to lean to the side and wander around like a lizard, aimlessly.

i want to eat it all and not even taste it.

i want it to be a system of consuming things.

i want handfuls.

i want to smoke cigarettes made from hundred dollar bills and i don't even want to have to inhale deeply.

i want it to come cheap.

i want it to be cheap and break like bad plastic.

i want a TV set in every room so i can ignore them.

i want to act like i'm paying attention to what you're saying but daydream instead.

i want to feed my head saccharin and someone else's blood, sweat and tears.

then i will sleep.