i want to be bloated, narcisisstic.
i don't want to make an effort.
i want to lean to the side and wander around like a lizard, aimlessly.
i want to eat it all and not even taste it.
i want it to be a system of consuming things.
i want handfuls.
i want to smoke cigarettes made from hundred dollar bills and i don't even want to have to inhale deeply.
i want it to come cheap.
i want it to be cheap and break like bad plastic.
i want a TV set in every room so i can ignore them.
i want to act like i'm paying attention to what you're saying but daydream instead.
i want to feed my head saccharin and someone else's blood, sweat and tears.
then i will sleep.